Tuesday, August 17

EssTieYuuPid.

I don't have much on people. I love people. I just find it hard to like people who are insolent and abusive. I have made a promise to myself, to become a kinder, gentler and hell of an approachable person. I  promised to be the person that strangers could come up to and ask questions, ask directions to and even just have a random talk. I promised myself that I would be the person that people wouldn't see as rash and scary.

I can't say I haven't succeeded, or that I haven't tried. BUT the more I try, the more I find it hard to even bear some people. They are INSOLENT AND ABUSIVE. Being new to my life excuses them from the fact that I don't mess with them, I respect them just having to know them but it seems that this respect couldn't be gained by acting like a fucking sugar king, more of that, this respect had to be gained BY FORCE.

I am a changed man, but I cannot bear and be abused. NOT FOR MY KINDNESS. If people think that I changed to be abused, even just a tiny bit. THEN I SHALL BECOME A DEMON, I shall revert to who I was and bash their STUPID heads on the floor. I swear.

If YOU, the reader, has been wondering what this STUPID thing I have been calling abuse was done, it's being able to TALK to me on the level like I'm some kind of inferior noob. hah! I know more things than you'll ever know in a lifetime. You and your pea of a brain.

What part of me has changed since I have been saying all these things?
The thing that has changed is that, I SAID LESS things than how I was feelings, I controlled my anger. I stood on a principle that "If you have nothing nice to say then don't say anything at all"  THAT is the thing that has changed.

And now that I have come to think of it. I am proud of myself.
To be able to take all this shit from a bull and be able to live as happily.
to be able to be patient with someone even when I'm letting them get hit by a truck in my head.
To be able to STAND this pathetic looser, this PATHETIC INSIGNIFICANT CRAP.
haha. I am a changed man and I love it. I love myself.
All you are and all you'll ever will be. is. a. normal. EssTieYuuPid. SHIT.
and yes. I am going to put. a.