Thursday, September 8

Can we ever move on?

The feeling that makes your heart beat faster. It's a feeling that makes you sweat like crazy and its a feeling that makes your insides turn with a strange mixture of extreme happiness and anxiety. It's a feeling you share with people with the people whom are considered special. It is a feeling called love and like all others; I have experienced to love. There's nothing wrong about that but the thing is, do we know when to move on?

It has been about 2 years since I last had the chance to say to a girl that I loved her with great sincerity, a great deal of sincerity. It has been 2 years and, as resilient as I am, I expect that I have already been able to move on but... I may not be as resilient to love as I am to other things because somewhat, I still feel something. I still feel something.

I feel sick. I feel regret. I feel happy. I feel anxious. I feel confused. I feel many things because of one person and the sad thing about this is I believe that this person hasn't the same feelings I have for her, not anymore.

The chance to let go. The chance to move on. I have taken both and I have let go but I never thought that I wouldn't be able to move on. I thought I would have moved on by now but I haven't. I have let her go, given her free will to love who she wants to love and to have who she wants to have but why do I still feel stuck.

There is this ONE quote that really strikes me:
You can let go but you can never move on.
 Whoever first said this must be feeling how I feel. You. You have fallen in and out of love, right? Do you still feel stuck or are you confident that you have moved on and let go? I am confident to say that I HAVE let go but I HAVE NOT moved on. I don't think I ever will.